We're having a baby boy!!!

So I just came back from my 19 week ultrasound and we are having a baby boy!!! We are so excited!!! I feel a little nervous but mostly excited. Here are a couple ultrasound pictures and you can be a judge for yourself. ;)

We are pregnant again!

So from our last blogs, if you read them, we miscarried in June. Well by surprise we ended up getting pregnant right before Loren left on this last patrol. We just had our first ultrasound appointment and confirmed the due date. We are due April 19th and the baby was moving all around in there. We didn't want to tell everyone until we felt good about the pregnancy because of what happened last time. Well I am 11 weeks 1 day and things seem to be going great! I have been really sick with this baby so that is a sign that the baby is growing well although I really hate feeling this way. Here is a picture of the baby. Enjoy!

Feeling sad

My husband left for his last patrol. I am glad that it is the last one and that he is going to shore duty after wards. I am just sad because before he left we had this stupid argument. I know we love each other and that we aren't mad anymore it's just that I hate when we let little things in the way of how we truly feel about each other. My husband is the type that won't let us ignore a problem and he is really good about helping me to not go to sleep without making up. Being a military wife you have a lot of adjustment periods like coming home and leaving for sea. With that, it takes each of us to be humble and remember that our true goal is to be with our family forever. When I seriously think about the eternal aspect of things it makes it hard for me to get upset, especially at little things. When I heard this song it made me think about how I feel when my husband and I argue, big or small. I love him with all my heart and he is truly my best friend. I know I've put that in past blogs but I can't say it enough that he is one of the best things that ever happened to me.

Communicating or not?

Why do people talk about other people? We all do and we all have at one time or another. I want to understand this, really I do. First off these are all my personal opinions. I think people talk about other people because one person has a concern and they are either prideful, fearful, doubtful or all of the above about approaching the other person. They could be prideful and think that they are not the problem at all and they don't think they need to change and just the other person has the problem. They could be fearful that the other person will take it personal or get upset. They could be doubtful that that person will even be receptive and the reason for talking about it with another person is because they might just want someone to listen or all of the above. When I think about what I have wrote so far I think that it's clear enough to say that it's all about how we communicate to one another. You can apply these principles in any relationship. Family, friend, co-worker, complete stranger and so on. Another question I have is why is it we try to communicate to our loved ones and less important people get the shorter end of the stick or in other words, we choose to ignore the problem and/or talk about it with other people instead of the ones we have the problem with? I think that with our loved ones we know the problem must be solved because there is more invested in the relationship and it would be detrimental to avoid the problem and let in fester. However, a relationship that is less important we think that we hopefully don't have to see them as much and it wouldn't matter too much if the relationship ended because not that much time and effort was put into the relationship in the first place. I guess you could call it choosing your battles, is the relationship worth the fight or not? My thoughts on all of this is that a problem is a problem whether you want to ignore it or not. It will still be there until you address it and you will continue to be unhappy every time you are around that person so why not take the time and effort to approach the person anyway. You might be surprised that the person might not have even been aware that you were offended or upset about something they said or did. I write this not because I am perfect but because I too need to learn this principle and have been guilty of doing the very thing that I have discussed in this blog not to do. I hope that we all will learn to better communicate in our lives and realize that we all play an important role somewhere and that if we just took the time to care just a little we would have less problems everywhere, in the work place, in politics, in society, in our families and with our friends and even with a person you might have just met. We all have been brought up different and have different back grounds and so it will take all of us to make those little changes in how we communicate to others for us to ever see a real big change in this world.

Celebrities died

I felt the need to blog about Micheal Jackson and Farrah Fawcetts death. I wanted to say that I am sad about Micheal Jackson because he was and probably will always be the "King of Pop". This is one of my favorite songs by him. I remember when it came out, I must have been in like 1st or 2nd grade. I even have the record of it, somewhere in storage ;).

Miscarriage

I never had a miscarriage before so I didn't feel hesitant to let everyone know early on that we were pregnant. Well to my surprise and confusion we miscarried about a week ago. I was only about 5 1/2 weeks along so the embryo was really tiny. But losing a baby anytime during pregnancy is a sad thing. I really don't know what else to say, I am just trying to cope. I didn't realize how hard it was going to be for me. I think that sometimes I think " it's OK, no big deal. " Then other times I'm like, " Why? " Then all these questions start stewing in my head. I just need to keep my faith in god and understand that he knows more than I do. Well just wanted to inform everyone that we told and didn't tell.

Getting out of the navy!!!

This next patrol here soon is Lorens last run. I am so excited to finally be off the USS Kentucky!!! After this patrol he is getting orders to go to sea school at Bangor and then hopefully there will be a opening for shore duty there. We decided that he is not going to reenlist in 2013 and is going to get out of the navy. It's exciting because the whole 4 years we have been together it has been on the Kentucky so now the rest of his naval career he will be on shore duty and be home!!!! YEAH!!!! Although he will be in school he will come home every night which is a lot better than being away 3 months at a time. I know people say it is going to be hard and I don't doubt that but I know that if we are smart about it everything will work out. And the fact that we are planning on getting out right now even when we have more than 3 years in will help us be better prepared when the time actually comes to get out. Our plan is for Loren to use the GI bill and get a Doctorate in Physics but we are both aware that something else might spark his interest while going to college. I am just so glad that he is going to be home all the time now!!! Another reason we decided to get out was that we want to have a big family and I just don't want to do it alone. If he was to stay in we would be done having kids and that just didn't feel right to us. The only reason we would have made the choice to stay in the military was the money and that Loren was already established. Getting out means that he has to start all over again and that was a little intimidating. I know that he is smart and self driven so I am not worried and I know that he will do well in college. After going to the Lord for his guidance we feel that this decision is good for our family. With all that being said I am excited about our decision and I feel confident that everything will work out right.